I know some of you on dA are my friends in real life, and this is a message for you:

Hey guys--

So some of you know I was planning on staying in Baltimore for the whole summer, living with Janna and Meghan, and that I went back to Colorado to see my mom before her surgery.

Well, when I got back here, my family had intended to hire an aid to take care of my grandma for the time my mom recovers from the surgery. My grandma has M.S. and needs someone to take care of her and stuff. This weekend, that aid decided to back out on the commitment after talking with her family about what it would entail. Due to the short notice and the fact my family can't afford to hire a care agency, I've decided to stick around Colorado for the next six or seven weeks, to take care of my family.

I might come back to Baltimore on select weekends, but...for now, I'm just...in Colorado.

I hope you're all doing well!

--Zac

I can SO tell college is over,because my watchlist just filled up completely.

I've got two more assignments to do and I'll be finished. It's a good feeling....and then I'll post up the work I've done this semester. I'm really excited about my own artwork for the first time in two years.

...to find a job has nearly ended. I've got a workstudy lined up-- it still needs to be accepted, but it will be because...there aren't a lot of kids who want to be Ceramics workstudies-- the tech makes them work for their living. But I really want that.

I also got a call from a woman who works at a Baltimore attraction called "top of the world." It's at the top of Baltimore's WTC, and I would be talking to people about Baltimore and all its attractions. I'm excited for that job, and I hope I get a call back about it.

The Workstudy position will give me enough cash to survive...the Top of the World position would give me the money to pay back my boyfriend's dad, who bought part of my colllege education last Friday. And after that's done...I might be able to save up some money to get my own apartment-- or continue paying Janna off for a while.

In other news...well. No care about other news right now. This is exciting to me.

I realized today that many of the ceramic pieces I'm working on right now have a shared transgendered element in some way-- one piece is a tea set that is going to stack up into the shape of a man, and it's going to unstack into a functional tea set. The sculpture will have characteristics of a male (the spout is the penis), but when it is unfolded it will have the same gendered context as the furry cup. In another piece I'm taking a simple shape, the cross, along with all its patriarchal symbolic baggage, and forming it into a sort of clay basket or pot or vase that's going to have two lips to it.

...I don't know why this is coming in this way, but it's sort of interesting.

According to some psychological test...while I identify as male, my gender role is androgynous leaning towards female. Maybe that's why.

My computer shut down and will no longer run the Vista OS.

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Bad dell. Or bad kids-who-spread-a-Vista-worm-on-April-1. Or both. Anyway, that means I have limited computer access, and won't be frequenting so much here until I get my computer fixed.

That means I need cash. I'm trying to get a job, but I don't know if I'll have one for a while.